Living with childhood trauma (complex) PTSD

     This website is created by a male victim of long-term child abuse. See story. Unfortunately, sexual child abuse is still a taboo within the mental healthcare. Many care providers do not know the signs of early childhood traumatization. Many children sometimes experience setbacks or experience f.i. domestic violence or bullying to a greater or lesser extent and therefore forms of abuse. In short, a youth is often not unscathed. The consequences can be diverse, but dissociation is one of the most characteristic factors. As recent research shows and now more known is that - longterm - childabuse can lead to psychosis.  The current survey on this site shows that almost every victim have suicidal thoughts. In fact the risk of suicide is two times greater compared to clients with depression. Unfortunately as Bessel van der Kolk (child psychiatrist) makes clear, psychiatry in general ignores trauma. Many with borderline should actually receive the Complex PTSD diagnosis.


       Childhood adversities changes the immuumrespons for long time and even for life due to chronic biological stress that even changes our DNA expression and lead to hartattacks, imflamation, astma, artritis and many ohter deseases and thus mal adaption of the developing childbrain. Finally we have to acknowledge how circumstances creates chronic stress and thus deseases instead and even many complaints in which we saw other causes. But the good thing is now we know the social causes we can alter the problems and thus give hope for those who suffer from unexplainable deseases.


Why climate change and its awareness has similar processes with the consequences and therefore treatment of chronic child abuse.

Preliminarily result national survey:
You appreciate the help with a 4.9

Scientific American: MDMA therapy PTSD promising.

Complex PTSD:

The consequences of early childhood traumatization are essentially different from the form of PTSD that military, police, and emergency services people can suffer from. It is more complex than just the number of symptoms associated with PTSD. People - including Bessel van der Kolk (child psychiatrist) call it a development-related trauma problem. Bessel states that many with borderline actually have complex PTSD. A brief summary of the symptoms are: dissociative problems, nightmares, sleeping problems, exhaustion and impairment of the immune system, emotional and visual flashbacks, depression, psychosis, suicide thoughts, problems with emotion regulation and much more, in addition to often relational problems.

Finding expert help:

Finding expert help is very important. After years of increasing knowledge, it now appears that the following methods of treatment are effective. This appears to be EMDR, biofeedback, writing, contact with fellow sufferers, haptonomy and forms of relaxation such as Yoga, Mindfullness and Reiki.


Finding A Therapist
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Physical complaints:

Prolonged child abuse and being untreated with the consequences of CPTSD leads to a reduction in immunity and thus inflammation, poor resistance resulting in all kinds of somatic complaints, such as arthritis, rheumatism, migraine, diabetes and inflammation. Relaxation exercises such as Reiki, Yoga and Mindfulness can give much improvement in this.


I have compiled a list of complaints from which you can suffer which you can download and fill in. Give this completed complaint list to your practitioner or caregiver. It also helps by getting an overview. Again the list is not a substitute for a good diagnosis made by a registered psychologist or practitioner.


CPTSD Questionaire
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Healthy food:

Many people often use an alcoholic drink due to stress - resolving physical unrest / tension - but this can result in an addiction, but also eating unhealthy foods with a lot of fat and a lot of salt. Taking good care of yourself also means eating healthier.

Self-stigmatization: "I am different than others"

Living with traumatic experiences in early life can give you the impression that you are different from others. But it is actually these experiences that do this. In fact there is nothing wrong with you and instead you have traumatic experiences.


Many agree that living with (Complex) PTSD means that you feel lonely and misunderstood by bystanders and organizations and or agencies. That is why I succeeded in establishing a support group last year through contacts. It is a shame than the mental health care, social workers and experience workers don't see the necessity to form and start CPTSD-support groups. Support can mean a lot, such as a word to wise is enough.

Secret FaceBook groups you can join

These groups can not be found on internet and the post are secret and only for participants



"We live to change"

Xandra: Bachelor Social Science, but not working. Complex PTSD from my early puberty, which affected all areas of my life and personality. It was only later in life that I was diagnosed with complex PTSD. That's why I say: 'Stand up for yourself, look for good help, do not think it’s your fault .' PTSD is a deep injury. Learn to take care of and accept your own vulnerability, in the light of your self-esteem. Claim your own space again. Now it is your time!

We all know what the world needs and those who are chained in fear. Some don't have the light in sight to see and are astray.

We all have the wisdom to cure ourselves, but most of all to feel the permission to cry and heal and not be abandoned.