Living with childhood trauma (complex) PTSD

As a male survivor, I know what it is to be a victim, to be forced silent, ignored, ridiculed (those with what was known as MPD) and that is why I am standing in line with all others behind Youth4Climate. The world knows the problems of abuse, trauma and conflicts and global warming, but we all seem to wish and thus think that it can not be true or that bad. Personally I think and sense that my traumatic problems vanish in the face of where the world is going too. Deep sadness and a silent overwhelming awareness. It took some time for me to get the picture. I suck in information and as bachelor known with science I knew where to find information. Then days of pure getting info, then "it can't be", then sadness, then anger, then feeling hopeless and depressed, no I must say and can say "Yes, it is true, no doubt, I understand and I know many don't." People go home, get info, let it be and become aware. Trust what you hear from those who know. The world and politicians has ignored and fooled many, like making you believe that the media is fake, don't you see? Like many VET's. there problems and now your own Government is ignoring your future and existence. Be brave trust what the facts are, judge your leaders be actions and insight and tell others. Tell your children, tell them in what for world we are living in, how we should live together, what is really important, tell and demand action. What is happening is not a opinion or political fact.

Wonderful and so inspiring to see how young people stand up worldwide, their courage and claim their right to a better world. It is insanity when leaders and politicians dismiss science as a hoax or opinion, fake news and what is really happening. I personally think they don't have a clue, no insight, no solution. The grave and ugly truth is rather is what is happening natural feedback-loops of the earth seems spiraling out of control. Like Eco-systems, El-Nino > more severe Hurricanes, steep rising temperature of the ocean, huge forests burning everywhere and permafrost melting all over. These statistical math predicting models are as NYT times reported are yet unknown by IPCC and when they do have them, who knows, what we will know then and deny now. The point of no return towards extinction?

Fact: we are already witnessing a out of control spiraling climate change, melting north and south pole ice, melting permafrost, warmer oceans, forest burning, thus intertwining and further destabilizing and thus more CO2 exponential,  get the hell back to safety

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Unicef: three quarters of children between 2 and 4 must deal with some kind of violence at home.


Dutch research: The effects on children of witnessing domestic violence is underestimated

Worldwide and mainly EU research: psycho trauma or child abuse can lead to psychotic symptoms


Human trafficking, slavery, denying, hating and discriminating colored people, laws against sexual orientation, religious madness and denying free will and opinion, child abuse seems deeply rooted in human societies and not mainly undeveloped nations


PTSS-challenge: every day 30 soldiers in the US with PTSD commit suicide

 

PTSD has also links with arthritis (autoimmune-diseases) and diabetes

Religion in many cases protects offenders and prevents justice, by a blanket of lies, covering up and forgiving the offender.

 

(Dutch)Facts:

- 1% has DID
- 50% -70% of all clients in the mental health - report Trimbos - care have a background of chronic (years) child abuse
- One third of all addicts have (complex) PTSD
- Up to about 98% of people with psychotic complaints report trauma

"When the silent pain of the past is in the here and now, unexpectedly, then again overwhelmed, then want to forget again. These sudden images or feelings (flashbacks) You feel unsafe, do not sleep anymore, you're anxious, you might wonder what is wrong with me, why do not I get a grip on something that has happened, why can something in the past grab me like that, why suddenly those feelings of grief, anger, the fears, you seem unreasonably angry sometimes, then sad again? You get tired of all those emotions, lack of sleep, it feels desperate, you also feel that you are alone and often not understood by others"

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Help yourself and important others to read this questionnaire and filling it in. It might clarify which problems you face

PTSD questionaire
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Please join the survey, because it is necessary to know how victims are doing. Do they find help and what are their complaints? It is completely anonymous and digital. It won't take long and this might help others. 

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When your inner foundation is pain, humiliation, abuse and shame.

That your youth is so important and unfortunately not for many people and in which you are neglected as a child, frequently abused, beaten, humiliated, betrayed, let down,  leads to all kinds of problems, which are partly a consequence and partly to have to survive and forget. Having anxiety symptoms is emotionally logical, that you are confused, sombre and maybe depressed too. The fact that you might have no defense at any given time against how your perpetrators saw you and from there abused you and are now in your mind is not a trait. If you are so often abused, beaten and humiliated and stigmatized, the child in you can lose all hope, the pain deeply buried in your soul. Some fragment to use parts of themselves in order to survive somehow and keep hope. Sometimes you may have fled in your mind, fleeing from the hurt and isolation as a child, you might have learned to ignore your pain, feelings, memories, perhaps only in your mind or fantasy in search for hope and safety.

That your youth is so important and unfortunately not for many people and in which you are neglected as a child, frequently abused, beaten, humiliated, betrayed, let down, leads to all kinds of problems, which are partly a consequence and partly due to have to survive and forget. That you have anxiety symptoms is emotionally logical, that you are depressed, confused, addicted too. The fact that you no longer had any defense on a certain moment how your perpetrators t treated and abused you and are now (voices) in your mind is not a sign that you are mad. If you are so often abused, beaten and humiliated and stigmatized, the child in you can lose all hope, the pain deeply buried in your soul. Some fragment to use parts of themselves in order to survive somehow and keep hope. The question is "what happened to you, in what way did you survive, don't give up on that boy or girl in you, your inner child"

Complex PTSD; the symptoms:

In addition to the usual symptoms of PTSD, like flashbacks, nightmares, startle response, loss of concentration, being alert etc:

- problems with identity and self-image
- Affect and emotion dysregulation
- dissociative periods of depersonalization and derealisation or a diffuse identity
- somatic problems, such as abdominal pain and digestive problems.
- Believing and internalizing the perpetrator's belief system or perpetrator's identification.
- social phobias and panic disorder
- loss of hope, resilience reduction and search of fate, victim role,
    acting-out, revictimization
- depression and changing moods
- relational problems and attachment problems
- suicidal thoughts
- chronic distrust

It is important to distinguish between borderline personality disorder (BPD) and that of the complex PTSD.

Many can also suffer due to tension and stress from headaches or migraines. Since (complex) PTSD is physiologically a stress problem, it can also affect the immune system and cause rheumatoid symptoms.

Complex PTSD with psychosis

In addition to the symptoms of complex PTSD

- periods of short-term dissociative psychoses with reasonable retention of reality
- hearing voices from the perpetrators and re-experience the emotional content.

The hallucinations are often less bizarre, as people with a schizo-disorder can have, for example, being able to walk through a wall. Often the delusions or hallucinations are based on the contents of the abuse or trauma.